Alternative Narrative, Part 1

My friend, Roger, and I have irregular email conversations. Roger is a Systematic Theologian. I, as some of you know, am a Theological Librarian. Interestingly enough, most of our conversations are political in nature. We are both politically liberal. For some reason our last conversation triggered me to write a bit about my background that […]

Giddyup! Ride ‘Em Cowboy!

I spent the last part of my 18th year and the first part of my 19th in the Pacific Northwest, a tiny town named Colville and a cabin north of Colville in the woods where there was no TV, radio, telephone, newspapers or mail service. I was cut-off from the outside world in the cabin. […]

A Common Problem: Mental Health and Diabetes

Just last week my numbers regarding diabetes went over the top. I’ve been on mental health meds for a couple (maybe a few) years. Steadily, I have gained weight. It has been next to impossible to curb my appetite and keep down the calories and simple carbohydrates. Most people don’t look at me and see […]

Gender And Suicide

Bullying, disbelief from others, no resources, no access to sympathetic medical care, personal confusion and shame. These are a few of the reasons that cause some people with gender dysphoria / gender identity issues to consider suicide. These are a few of the reasons that some die from suicide. Even though we as a society […]

Suicide

A young woman (girl, 16 or 17 years old) attempted to take her own life — again. She had tried before, when she was 15. I don’t know her well enough to be able to say she was influenced by this-and-that that led her to choose death by suicide. I just know she is a […]

My Mental Health

Right now? Not good. Because I have good meds and a service dog to help me navigate the social world, many people presume I don’t have any problems with mental illness anymore. Again, not true! I do have excellent meds; a regimen that we worked out together over a period of about five to six […]

Lamotrigine Withdrawals

This is hard! Typing this out while simultaneously going through withdrawals. It’s been 44 hours, I think, since my last dose. I am dizzy, confused, unable to concentrate, irritable, and exceedingly sleepy. The pharmacy was able to refill my prescription today so relief is on the way soon. Do you ever wonder if the medication […]