I have spent most of the day learning a lot about blogging. I am such a newbie. I have tons yet to learn. I’ve been learning from two people I have learned to trust and respect and who know A LOT about blogging. If I’m not careful, I could end up doing this full time.
One of my problems is that I have a fairly broad niche.
I struggle with mental illness. So far, this seems to be my most frequent post subject. It’s interesting though. I am diagnosed as having severe PTSD. If triggered, I sometimes dissociate. Therefore, I have my service dog, Hunter. But I am also diagnosed, as is true for most PTSD survivors, with severe depression and anxiety. Instead of throwing myself under the bus, I once seriously thought about throwing myself under a semi-truck & trailer. I was so close. On the freeway. Lane next to it. So easy. But I am also high functioning. I’ve been able to hold responsible positions for long periods of time. Not easily mind you but up to 20 years. This seems to be the niche with the most traction.
But I am also a serious Christian mystic. Being a mystic in one religion, however, makes me more a brother and sister to mystics in other religions than to conservative Christians, especially Evangelicals with whom I apparently have nothing in common. I thought this would be a greater niche than it has turned out to be. Of course it is early yet. I’ve only been blogging since February.
Since I don’t know what to say today, well I didn’t think I had anything to say, here’s some wisdom from a Christian mystic who died at 24 years of age.
“…if LOVE ever became extinct, apostles would not preach the Gospel and martyrs would not shed their blood. I understood that LOVE COMPRISED ALL VOCATIONS, THAT LOVE WAS EVERYTHING, THAT IT EMBRACED ALL TIMES AND PLACES . . . IN A WORD, THAT IT WAS ETERNAL! . . . MY VOCATION IS LOVE!” Story of a Soul: the autobiography of St Thérèse of Lisieux : a new translation from the original manuscripts by John Clarke, O.C.D. Washington, D.C. : Institute of Carmelite Studies, 2nd edition, 1976, p. 194.